I try not to think about it but sometimes it consumes my thoughts. Yes we'll get through it but I don't want to. He's my best friend. He calms me down when things aren't going well. How will I handle everything alone? Not to mention only really talking to a 1 year old.... who's vocabulary consists of saying "Dat" ALL THE TIME.
We are going on our second big date this weekend. WHAT!? Yes, you read that correctly. My husband and I have been on one other big date since baby J was born. We just don't have the family support system like a lot of our friends do. There is no dropping her off at the grandparents house for a Friday night dinner. Hiring a babysitter for a weekly date is out of the question when you're paying $10 an hour plus dinner.
When you don't have that alone time, it can be REALLY hard on a new marriage with a baby. So with the hubby moving out next week... well you can imagine my heart feeling broken. I also have a lot of anxiety over what Baby J will go through. It will be just as hard on her not having daddy around for cuddles and pillow fights. But... we will survive.
I just keep repeating... if you never go through the storm, how would you ever find the rainbow?
